i know i'm going out of style, 10000 miles from you

word up

so i'm bored. whats new. huh

last night i went to Richards house to get some physics tutoring from him, and after that i'm getting pretty annoyed.
there is SO MUCH involved in each question that i can't believe they make us learn so much. seriously. richard is bamboozled because he designs different mechanical and other engineering devices, and he doesn't even know this stuff/need to use it. argh

the maths is pretty darn confusing too. i'm afraid that thursday hangout with esther in the morning will just turn into her trying to explain it to me, and me getting grumpy for not understanding and blah

i'm still trying really hard though, it's just that it's hard to do work when you're stuck, or just get so annoyed that you don't want to do it

poo

also, i've rediscovered how good Mustard Plug are

shut the blog up

hey all, welcome to another installment of self absorbed blogging

i'll just give you a quick run down of whats been going on in the owen camp lately, than explain more in depth whats going on

i've got no money, i've seen some good bands play, i've missed some good bands playing, my brain has been playing tricks on me, and i've decided to do some more travelling.

okay, the no money situation:
basically, i was on top of things and was starting to save up a bit of money, which was brilliant (as i'm very bad at it, damn you jb-hifi). i had my wisdom teeth out, and mailed off the forms to medicare to get the discounts i deserved from my health fund and booked my car in for it's 100,000km service. the service was meant to only cost approx $200, and wisdom teeth claimed and made much cheaper.
i got a call from the mechanic to say "hey owen, your car is in brilliant condition, except for the fact that it needs CV joint replacements, the drive shaft repaired, new spark plugs and to have the automatic fluid flushed". i was like, "oh great, so i need to get the CV joints and drive shaft fixed else my car might crash and i'd die, so how much is this all gonna cost me?" his reply was "$680". crap! i didn't have quite that much money to pay him, so i needed to pay with the credit card, and he was like "oh, there a credit card charge, so it'll be $715". bugger again.
also, it turns out medicare lost the most expensive reciept (the surgeons bill) and took forever to refund me some money for the aneithsetist that they're both demanding i pay up, so i had to go to medicare and complain to them, so they recon they'll sort it out, but i'm not so sure.
i have work tomorrow, but it'll go towards my phone bill and pay off enough of the mechanic bill so i can pay it all off with the amount of money in my account. my final balance will total $0

oh well, at least i won't die in a car crash. well i could, but it won't be cause of any mechanical fault of my car, as now all that needs to be replaced since i got it is the transmission, brakes and suspension (which got checked and are fine). i hope they stay fine for a long time...

seen some good bands play:
in the past month i've seen Damien Rice, The Bronx and The Evens. these were some of the best shows i've ever seen. Damien Rice was brilliant at guitar and storytelling (and has a wonderful backup singer who looks as good as she sings), The Bronx still put on the most rock n roll shows i've ever seen (someone reviewed it in the drum media and commented on how they'll be telling grandchildren about the show i saw) and keep amazing me each time i see them, and The Evens were so brilliant in their two-peice-drums-and-guitar-and-vocals way and Ian MacKaye is the nicest musician i've met (i shook his hand for real) that i was the biggest fanboy ever.
(i swear since Ian shook my hand, that that hand has all of a sudden gotten much better at guitar, while the other one is slow on the uptake)
i'm going to see Dropkick Murphy's play in two weeks and then Flogging Molly & Gogol Bordello in their double headlining tour. these shows are another reason i have no money, but it's worth it to see them play. (i've also already bought the tickets, so i don't need to find money to buy more tickets)

missed some good bands play:
my friends in Sounds Like Chicken play their final gig tomorrow down in melbourne. i'll be missing it as i need to work so i'm not completely broke. i was going to go down and do a live recording of the show, but after their tour to adelaide cost more than they expected, they didn't have enough money to even cover my fuel costs of driving down, so they got another dude who lives down there to do it. it's a pity, cause i really wanted to go, but i can't even afford $20 to squeeze in an overcrowded car to go down. besides, i've got work on now to try and have no debt

my brain has been playing tricks on me:
well, i think i have some sort of anxiety thing, because my brain keeps making me get worked up over nothing. for example i'll just be sitting here and my brain will tell me something like "hey owen, you know that time esther said she couldn't hang out cause she was busy? WELL SHE WASN'T, SHE HATES YOU" and i'll be all like "but she really was busy, she was at uni and even showed me the work that she did there" but my brain will go "I DON'T CARE, SHE HATES YOU" and then i'll get all confused and worked up over it cause she doesn't hate me, and she really was busy, but my brain tells me the opposite. so annoying. Olga recons i should see a doctor, but that scares me a bit. she knows about these things though cause she was studying to become a doctor but got sick while studying (thats another story).

i've decided to do more travelling:
Esther has applied to go overseas to study in London for a few months. i'm going to miss her HUGELY (seriously massively) but i really want her to go, cause she'll have the best time ever andlearn so much stuff. we don't know if she's going to get it or not, we have to wait and see.
but anyway, if she goes, i'm going to go over and visit her when she's finishing up, and if she doesn't go, we'll just go on a holiday anyway because we would have been saving up to go anyway! anyway anyway anyway
we were looking at a map of europe, and we're currently thinking (subject to huge changes cause we talked about it for only 15mins or so): London, fly to Amsterdam, then catch the train to Brussels, then to Paris, then back to London. after that fly to somewhere on the east coast of the USA (New York or Washington or something), then over to Salt Lake City to visit Olga and her husband Alex because Olga is one of my best friends and she's having a baby in October, then on to either Los Angeles or San Francisco, then home again.
i've been scouting out 'round the world' tickets and they'll cost approx $2600 cause we're still students. add on another $1500 for other travel costs, and it'll cost about $4000ish. that, plus spending money for when i'm there (so i can eat/see arsenal play) and i'm going to the saving every penny i make ever. something tells me i might need a part time job in the meantime. anyone hiring?
i'm not going to need to pay too much in accomodation, as Esther's cousins will be living in London so we can stay with them, and i'll stay at Olga's house too. i think we'll be staying in a lot of backpacker hostels, but it'll be GREAT FUN i know it :)

so yeah, coming up for me is more pain with uni (maths and physics are seriously killing me, i HATE them) and not spending any money, so if i come to your house and eat as much food as i can or borrow as many DVD's/CD's as i can, please take pity on me as i won't have eaten much while being out and i can't afford to buy my own CD's and DVD's

k thanks

oh, tonight i saw the Swannies play against Port in a practice match. they lost by 4 points or something, but i think they'll need to pick it up (literally) if they're going to beat West Coast in round 1.

High Anxiety

this song pretty much sums up how i'm feeling right now. i hate it when things that are out of my control get on my back. i wish they'd go away so i can sleep...


[Chorus:]
Well it's the high anxiety
(I'm a victim of society)
high anxiety
(I'm a victim of society)
high anxiety
it's my high anxiety getting to the best of me.

[Verse1]
Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna explode,
and when I'm approaching total overload,
I know that when I'm having a panic attack,
to duck and cover cuz I can feel it coming.

[Chorus]

[Verse2]
This time I feel like I'm gonna die,
cold sweat the fear is paralyzing,
you know I wish that this was over and done,
heart pounds I can feel it escalating.

[Chorus]

[Bridge x2]
I don't know why,
sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night,
I don't know why,
I gasp for breath I'm really feeling like I'm on the brink of death.

[Verse3]
I wish I could get this crisis under control,
then I could feel some kind of closure.
I feel this could go on and on without end,
I guess I'll just have to ride it out cuz

[Chorus 2x]

..addiction

yeah, i'm addicted to the internet

it's 4:20am, i should have been in bed 5 hours ago

eep...

..read the news the other day, about a boy they threw away..

so last night i saw The Bronx play

*best show*

seriously kicked total ass.

so many good things happened at that show that i can't explain them all.

tonight i'm seeing The Evens play at Glebe Town Hall and am pretty darn excited

whoopee, another massive blog